Sidelined: A Sports Romance Read online

  I wasn’t giving up that easily. The adrenaline was flowing through me. “Dance with me, Sam. Not ballet. But hold me. Dance with me.”

  I could see the defeat as his shoulders sagged. “There are no cameras in this studio, are there?”

  “No, of course not.”

  I placed my hands around his neck as he slipped his palms to the small of my back.

  “See? Not so bad.” I ran my hand over his shoulder and the width of his bicep, pulling his grip on my hip so that we were holding hands. I clutched our joined palms at my breast.

  The steps were small and the movements were easy, but we moved together with as much perfection as we did in bed. He didn’t give himself credit for how athletic he was. He wouldn’t be able to dive and avoid tackles without agility and the skill of staying light on his toes. I wasn’t going to present it to him like that, but he had his own style of grace.

  I pressed up into another relevé, adding several inches to my height. I didn’t say a word as he lifted me from the ground and brought my lips to his as he continued to elevate me into the air. His arms flexed and I looked down into his eyes.

  He lowered me slowly, dragging my body over his. I closed my eyes, taking in the solidness of him as I slid to the floor.

  “Natalia, come back with me,” he whispered.

  The moment felt magical and enchanted. Almost as if we were rehearsing a lovers scene for the stage.

  “Can I think about it?” I asked. “Please.”

  He pressed his forehead to mine and I heard the vinyl crackle in between songs.

  “Don’t wait too long to answer.”

  “I won’t.”

  He kissed me gently and walked out of the room. “I have to get back to San Antonio.”

  There was a giant hollowness in my chest. I didn’t want him to leave, but I didn’t think I was the kind of girl who could go.

  Twenty-Five

  Sam

  I had just enough time to make it back for the afternoon team meeting. I would drive straight to the stadium. I turned up the radio, but I couldn’t stop thinking about her. The more time I spent with her, the more I wanted her. I wanted her with me all the time. Not just for quick nights here and there.

  She had to understand that if I needed her in San Antonio, she had to be there.

  Ninety minutes later, I parked in my spot underneath the stadium and took the elevator to the strategy floor. I could hear the low murmur of the other guys. I took a seat mid-way down the aisle in one of the auditorium-style seats.

  Coach Howell was going through plays with the offensive and defensive coordinators. They weren’t ready to start the meeting yet. I yawned, but jumped when I felt my phone vibrate. It was a text from Natalia.

  Call me when you can.

  Starting pre-game meeting. It will be a couple of hours.

  Ok.

  I wanted to write something about last night, or even about this morning. How fucking sexy she was. How she had stolen my breath with only a few spins in her special ballerina shoes.

  I looked down when my phone vibrated. I smiled, hoping Natalia had sent me something in French. I loved it when she said something dirty. Something I’d never heard before or imagined.

  I read the text in disbelief.

  Can’t we at least talk? Meet for coffee?

  Shit. It was Maddie again. I had to find a way to block her or I’d get a new number. It would be a pain in the ass, but it would be worth it not to have her contact me. Why was she doing this? Why was I suddenly her life line? I didn’t buy it.

  No.

  I wrote back. I turned my phone off. I wouldn’t respond to anything else. That was the last word she’d hear from me. I’d been done with her for years. She was the bitch who had cut me out. Now I’d be the dick who did the same thing.

  The lights lowered and the film began to run.

  Coach spoke into the microphone. “Guys, pay attention to this. It’s a play they ran last week. It worked, so we can expect to see it tomorrow.”

  He got our attention and the room went silent. Everyone focused on the film. Everyone except me. All I could think about was a ballerina who was in my head.

  Two hours later, I ran out of the meeting with the phone to my ear.

  “Hey, you made it back okay?” Her voice sounded sweet.

  “I drove straight to practice.” I walked to the end of the hallway where I could talk to her privately.

  “Good. I’m glad you made it back.”

  “What’s going on?”

  She sighed. “I want to tell you yes, but I think we’re moving too quickly.”

  I slammed my palm against my forehead. “It doesn’t feel like it’s too fast when we’re together, does it?”

  “No, it doesn’t. And I think that’s what scares me the most about it, Sam. Is this even real?”

  I stared out the window at the indoor practice field. “It’s real for me. I’ve never asked someone to move in with me before. I want you here.” I could feel the tension gripping in my neck.

  “I want to be there too, but I think we should try things like this for a while. Can we do that? Plan weekends? I’ll come see you next time. Or we can meet in the middle?”

  “The middle? There’s nothing in the middle.” I was pissed, and my voice was getting louder.

  “Okay, as soon as you left I started looking up some places and I found these cute cottages on Canyon Lake. We could rent one and no one would see us and we could spend time together.”

  I huffed. “This is a fucking first.”

  “Excuse me?”

  “Most women want to be photographed and seen with me and you’re the exact opposite.”

  “Sam, I tried to explain to you how important it is that I do this on my own. I don’t want a handout. If you can’t respect that I don’t want your money, then maybe this isn’t even worth trying.”

  I closed my eyes. I didn’t want to fight with her. I didn’t want to push her away.

  “I’m sorry, Natalia. I’m tired and it was a long meeting. I didn’t mean it like that. I’m sorry.”

  There was silence on the other end.

  “Natalia?”

  “Yeah. I was thinking.” Her voice was soft. “I’ll let you go and we can talk after our games tomorrow. Just think about it, Sam. I want to see you again, but if you can’t handle me staying on the dance team, then you need to let me know. I made a commitment to the Goddesses and I’m going to keep it.”

  I saw Wes walking toward me. This was the last thing I wanted him to hear.

  “Right. Right. Yeah, let’s talk tomorrow.” I hung up to face the quarterback.

  “You ran out of there like your ass was on fire.” He eyed me.

  “Something back home,” I lied. “What’s up?”

  “I wanted to talk to you about a couple of the plays we have lined up for tomorrow. Howell, as usual, is a dumbass.”

  I scratched the back of my head. I wasn’t going to get in the middle of Coach and Wes’s on-going argument about who should decide the game plays. Some teams were dependent on the quarterback and some relied on a team of coordinators to decide. Coach Howell liked to be the one in charge and so did Wes.

  “What are you thinking?” I asked.

  “What I think is, we use the same shit we did against the Warriors. Start off with an even rotation and then I go to you straight every time.”

  My face lit up. “I like how you think.” There was nothing Coach could do if I ran the route that was called to me on the field. At that point I was only doing my job.

  “Good. Then expect to make a lot of catches and let’s run that score up.”

  I laughed. “Fuck, yeah. Let’s do it all afternoon.”

  My argument with Natalia didn’t seem as important. I remembered I was here to win football games and collect a two-million dollar bonus in a few months.

  I walked down the hall for the elevator when I heard Cavan calling my name.

  “Hey, you didn’t
call me about the playbook.” He stopped me at the elevator.

  “Right. It’s in my car if you want it.”

  “I checked around and no one else has one. I’ll take yours if you’re sure.”

  “Yeah. It’s yours. Come on.”

  We rode the elevator to the garage level. Cavan followed behind me. He was having a pretty good season. I was impressed another rookie could join the team and do what he had with the pressure weighing down on us to repeat our championship victory.

  I pulled the binder out of the trunk and handed it to him.

  “Thanks, man. I appreciate it.”

  “No problem.”

  I knew how he felt. I remembered what it was like when everyone around you had the plays memorized and you were still trying to get to know the names of a hundred different guys and staff members. He was in a new city with a new job. There were a lot of adjustments to make. But he seemed to be the kind of guy who was handling it in stride. Maybe better than I had.

  I needed to get home, shower, and study the game notes for tomorrow. I hopped behind the wheel and steered toward my apartment.

  I turned the shower off and grabbed the towel on the closest rack, wrapping it around my waist. I heard my phone buzz.

  Holy fuck.

  It was a picture of Natalia. She was standing on one toe, pulling her leg behind her so it was almost touching her head. She made a perfect circle using her leg and her back. I knew she was flexible, but this was fucking insane.

  I texted her back.

  I thought you said there were no cameras in there.

  I waited for her response.

  I set the timer just for you.

  I laughed out loud. I adjusted the towel so it rested on the lowest part of my hip and took a shot of my profile and sent it to her. That should do the trick. I was dripping wet.

  J’ai envie de toi.

  I leaned my head against the glass wall. She was killing me. The dirty French talk. Her body. All of it. I wanted her. I didn’t need to wait until after the game to have the follow up discussion. If I had to wait a few more weeks, maybe it was worth it.

  I turned off the bathroom light and wrote back to her.

  I want you too.

  Good night, Sam.

  Good night.

  I plugged my phone into the charger next to my bed and pulled back the sheets. I set my alarm. I had a game day ritual at home that started with a big breakfast and a quick jog in the park. It helped me relax.

  I watched a few minutes of Sports Now before I fell asleep.

  The next morning, I jumped up from bed before my alarm went off. What in the hell was that? I rubbed my eyes and took a deep breath. I knew it was a dream, or a nightmare. But it had felt fucking real. I had bolted awake with fear coursing through me.

  I had been holding Natalia. We were talking about the lake or something and I rolled away from her, and when I rolled back she was gone. Instead, Maddie was there. Fuck. I ran my fingers through my hair.

  Why was I dreaming about Maddie? Ever since she called when I was at Natalia’s apartment I had done everything to forget the conversation. She said she needed money. Todd had kicked her out and she didn’t know where to go. Fuck that. I wasn’t giving her a dime of what I earned.

  She didn’t deserve to be in dreams. She didn’t deserve to speak to me or see me. I didn’t think about her anymore. I didn’t have a single picture of her in my apartment. When we graduated, I got rid of everything that was hers. She had put me through the emotional wringer. I took another deep breath. This wasn’t how I wanted to start my Sunday.

  I put on a pair of shorts and shuffled to the kitchen. I couldn’t let something stupid like a dream interfere with the game-day routine. I had a big breakfast to cook.

  I arrived at the stadium earlier than usual. I was off all day. I had been since that nightmare forced me awake. I couldn’t shake it. I thought about calling Natalia, but what was I going to say? Yeah, I’m fucking freaked out about a dream I had where my ex replaced you. That wouldn’t go over well in any scenario. She was understanding, but that would be pushing it. I had already made the decision not to tell her she had called me when I was in Austin. I wasn’t going to bring it up now.

  I threw my bag on top of my cubby and sat on the bench. As usual, the equipment guys had laid everything out for me and the rest of the team. All I had to do was suit up for the game. But sitting here, staring at my name, I wasn’t sure if my head was in the game. I pressed my palms to my forehead.

  I needed a few minutes to get my shit together, because once I took the field everyone in the stadium counted on me. Wes counted on me. Coach counted on me. But right now, I wasn’t sure I could count on myself.

  Twenty-Six

  Natalia

  I walked through the door and threw my bag on the floor. My body ached all over. Four hours of dancing and I was ready to crawl into a hot, steamy shower. I was headed to the bathroom when I saw Sam’s number pop up on the screen.

  “Hey, how was the game?” I asked. I turned on the hot water and added a bit of cold.

  “Natalia…” He sounded upset.

  “What’s wrong? What happened?” I turned off the water so I could give him my full attention.

  “We lost.” His voice was low and deep.

  “Oh, God. I’m sorry, Sam. You’re having such a great season.”

  “Were having a great season,” he corrected me.

  “It’s only one game.” I paced in my bathroom. I was out of my element. I didn’t know how to console him. I thought everyone took the sport too seriously, anyway.

  “You don’t understand.”

  “Did something else happen?” I was confused. His voice didn’t sound fun and flirty like usual.

  “I dropped the game-winning pass.” He sounded anguished, and I suddenly understood why.

  “Oh, God. That’s terrible.”

  “It was a disaster. It was a perfect pass. Right at me. And I couldn’t hold on to it.”

  I grasped at something to say. “There will be other games. Other chances. It’s okay, Sam. It’s okay.”

  “There’s nothing okay about it.”

  The silence fell between us. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what to say.”

  “Say you can see me tonight.”

  “What?” I was exhausted. He had to be exhausted from the game.

  “That place you mentioned. Canyon Lake. I’ll get a cabin and we can meet. It’s only forty-five minutes for both of us. Meet me.”

  “Sam, I don’t know.” There wasn’t anything keeping me here. My Monday was free. “Okay, yeah, I can pack and be there in an hour, I guess.”

  He sounded relieved. “I’ll text you the cabin. See you there.”

  He hung up and I wondered what he had planned.

  I parked under a scrub oak and looked at the little cabin Sam had rented for us. It was only a few yards from the lake. His car was already here.

  I stepped from the car as he opened the front door to Cottage 11.

  “You made it.” He jogged down the stairs and picked me up in his arms.

  “It’s beautiful here.” The moon was bright on the lake. It didn’t look as if any of the other cabins were being rented.

  “I’ll get your bags.” He was already pulling them from the backseat and taking them inside. “Take a look at the cabin.”

  I followed him up the stairs. It was small, but romantic. Exactly what I pictured. Only, I didn’t expect to speed here like I did, but none of that mattered. We were together and Sam seemed more relaxed than when we spoke on the phone.

  The door opened and I inhaled. “Oh my God.” It was filled with candles and flowers. There was a bottle of wine on the table and a small fire in the fireplace.

  “You like it?”

  “I love it. It’s exactly what I wanted.”

  He came up behind me and deadbolted the door closed. His hands circled my waist and he kissed my neck.

  “You’re exactly what I
want too.”

  He pushed my cover up off my shoulders, dropping it at my feet. I spun around in his arms, remembering the last time we were together we danced in my studio.

  His lips brushed over mine and I tipped forward to kiss him.

  “Are you okay?” My fingers played with his hair. “You sounded upset on the phone. I was worried.”

  “With you I am.” He lifted me from the floor and carried me across the room. I expected him to lower me on the couch in front of the fire, but he kept walking.

  “Where are we going?”

  He kicked open another door. There was a huge tub filled with bubbles.

  “Don’t you like to relax after a game?” he asked.

  My eyes widened. “How did you know?” He placed my feet on the tile.

  “Because I know what it feels like when you work your body like that for four hours. Ever muscle is sore. Every part hurts.”

  I nodded, rubbing my neck. “Everything.”

  “How’s your leg?” He lowered to the floor, dragging my shorts to my ankles. He stopped to kiss the back of my leg.

  “Better when you do that.” I smiled. I liked the pampering. I liked the candles and the flowers and the huge tub with bubbles.

  He rose from the floor and lifted my shirt overhead.

  “Fuck, I love that your tits are so perfect,” he growled.

  They hardened under his stare. I stepped toward him, pressing my hands to his chest.

  “Are we both going to fit in that tub?” I looked over my shoulder.

  He laughed. “No, it’s for you. Enjoy it and I’ll be waiting for you out there when you’re done.”

  I looked at him strangely. “Really?”

  “Really.” He kissed my forehead. “Enjoy it.”

  He walked out of the bathroom and closed the door. I pivoted toward the bubbles. I was turned on from his kisses and his touch, but the bath was calling. I knew where he’d be when I got out.

  I dipped one toe in, feeling the soothing relief of the hot water, then slid all the way in until I was submerged up to my shoulders. I rested my head on the back of the tub. I didn’t know Sam had a romantic side. I took in the moment and let my body relax. I didn’t worry about being a Goddess or trying out for the ballet. I didn’t worry that he wanted things to move faster than I did. I tried to block all of that out and realize that an insanely hot and sexy man had planned a spontaneous romantic overnight trip for me. That was all that mattered.